Sort of a progress report on that diagonal blossom picture

I think I've reached the point where this picture is starting to get to me. I really thought that this one might be the rare blossom picture that involved few decisions. Decisions are what really become roadblocks for me in these pictures. This one isn't as bad as others in that regard; I've had pictures where the simple act of putting in a single cell - a cell that measures about 1/3 of an inch across - would stump me, and I'd be virtually paralyzed. In this one, the decisions are broader, and there's a greater freedom to choose the colors and saturation of individual cells. It will go through alternations of what, in my mind at least, can be considered relatively solid colors arrayed within a variegated field. Don't mind me, I'm just thinking out loud here.

Anyway, here's the picture as it currently stands. It's about 30% - 35% complete. The painted area measures about 9 1/2 X 8 1/2 inches.... less than a standard sheet of photocopy paper, in other words.

Sorry for the picture quality. I took this photo under fluorescent light at night. The partial picture on the right is another blossom picture I'll probably never finish. It's one that started well and went downhill.

So, what you can see in the photo, if you look at the "apex" of the dark region in the lower left, is the blossom point. The shading of the cells shifts at that intersection. Here's a close-up of the blossom point of another blossom picture that illustrates what I'm talking about a bit better:

The decision I'm stuck on at the moment involves the shading of the cells. I've known since starting the picture that somewhere in the picture I would want to shift the shading, but of course I had no idea what the picture itself would look like so I couldn't predict where the shift would occur.

When I shift the shading, it interrupts some of the rhythms. In some cases that can signal a barrier of some sort; in others, it implies a reflection. (Again, I'm writing now the way I talk to myself as I do these pictures. I don't expect this to mean much to anyone else.)

In this diagonal blossom picture, the shading will likely shift just above the highest point that's been painted so far. I've become obsessive about this. I've actually gotten out a ruler and measured various things, as if that was going to help guide me to a decision. I've made little pencil marks at a number of places on the sheet, apparently as reminders or something, and I swear to you I have no idea what any of them were meant to signify. As I said, this picture is starting to get to me. The only thing that really helps me stay under control is remembering that almost no one will ever see this picture or take more than a minute to look at it. No matter how stupid I get about these things, I still know that what I consider monumental decisions are things that won't matter a bit in the long run. If I ever lose sight of that, I'll have cause for genuine concern, I suppose.